Don’t know where i’m going, but i know where i’ve been

Gigs, Gigs and more gigs. That’s what i’m in the process of working on at the moment. I’ve got a lot booked between now and Christmas, mainly private functions but there will hopefully be more for everyone to come and watch.

I’ve been working on new material and have about 4 or 5 new songs that i like a lot and can see myself working with. Got lots more to finish off though as well. That’s probably my biggest downfall, finishing what i start. This is a real test for me and one to continue working on.

Looking forward to the next few weeks ahead and the reality of achieving some of the dreams i once set for myself.

Changing fortunes of a positive man

I’ve not written anything for ages. To be honest i’ve not felt up to it. I’ve not had the heart or desire to put up what i’m thinking for all to see. Many dark days have past and reading back over my previous post’s it is so clear how much of a different person i am to who i was even as little as 2 months ago.

It feels like a lifetime has passed and right now, i am so positive about everything in my life. I’ve worked tirelessly to improve my state of mind and my performance level. I’ve succeeded with everything i set out to acheive a couple of months back.

Taking stock of life is a great thing and no matter what anyone says, when it is your time to shine then it truly is and there isn’t anything that anyone can do about it. One of the true secrets of life.

I’ll be writing more and more on here from now on, this is the true start of everything that i am.

Que sera,sera

Whatever will be, will be. So much going on of late that i don’t know where to begin. How life can change so quickly in the space of 7 days is so amazing. Those highs and lows i’ve talked about come back to haunt who i am.

I just wish that things work out, everything i hope and dream comes together and affairs of the heart are settled.

I’ve never given myself to anything as much as i have over the past 12 months. To sit here thinking that it may come crashing down in the blink of an eye is not what i hoped or imagined.

There reaches a point in everyone’s life where you sit back and take stock of things. This is my week. I know i’ve given all i can.

Changing fortunes of a broken man

Up and down, up and down, it just keeps going on and on. The never ending commitment to get to where i want to go in life but not stopping to appreciate the things i have. One minute, high as a kite, singing from the rooftops and full of self belief and energy. The next, so low, low as you can be where you think nothing will come of anything you try.

In the midst of all this, rehearsals for forthcoming gigs and trying to keep focus with everything.

Has the day come where you give up?? Nothing is what it was meant to be and as such it’s easier to leave it behind and try to find something else to occupy life?? I may not yet be where i want to be, but i’ll get there. Losing that inner trust of yourself is difficult to handle and can change you from a state of utter despair to enlightenment in the space of a few seconds. I may be broken at times but never truly broken.

Fears may well have hunted me down but they will not break who i really am.

Confidence and lack thereof…

One of the most singlehanded issues that can prevent something from happening. I’m dealing with this all of the time. Within myself there is a battle of wits between the performer and the real person. At the minute, i’m feeling confident in myself but not so much as an artist. Striking a balance is so important and at the same time, proving so difficult.

I’m sharing this as i think this blog should be honest and express exactly what i’m about. Musically, it has impacted by stopping me in my tracks a little without any real reason. The slightest thing can throw me off and put me back and i’m not even sure why i feel this way but i do for some reason.

Funny thread this, but important all the same. Strange day today.

Music Video Move Closer

We recently shot a video for Move Closer. This was my first involvement in a shoot and it went really well. The experience was great. We got a couple of young, local actors in from M.A.D. Theatre, Jack and Rosie who play the lead roles. Their performances were truly excellent.

There was no fucking about on the set, yet we all had a good time. We got straight down to it and filmed it all within a few hours.

The basic storyline is they are a young couple who though in love, cannot save their relationship. The video is based around the aftermath of a fall out as Jack attempts to keep the relationship alive, but to no success. It’s gritty and real. The fight scene is as real as it gets and there was no stage acting in this one, they both really went for it and gives the video it’s edge.

The video will be shortly released at my gig at the Central Library on August 15th. Can’t wait, it’s a belter!

Inspiration

Still inspired to be all that i can be and working on some more new material. I’ve not posted on here for a couple of weeks, been busy with so much but that’s the time i guess i should be writing more on here! I’m still getting used to having a blog but i’m committed to it and want to see it grow as everyone does for their own.

I’ll put on a few posts with how things have been going and what i have exactly been up to. Enjoy the ride.

Where Do Angels Fall?

Rehearsing for my gig last week i was playing around with a few chords and a song came to me, lyrics and all. Where do Angels Fall is the title and i think is partly inspired by me having watched City of Angels a couple of days previous.

The film City of Angels for those who don’t know, is about an angel played by Nicolas Cage, who falls in love with a woman (Meg Ryan) and must become mortal again to be with her. In the film they say that this is where he falls! hence the title of my song i guess.

If you haven’t seen the film it’s worth a watch and also has a great soundtrack including in the arms of an angel (think it’s called that!) by Sarah Maclachlan and a great acoustic version of Iris by the Goo Goo Dolls.

Well worth a watch and very inspirational if you into films with a real human theme.

Gig Update

Saturday’s gig went really well and i showcased a brand new song too. The feedback from the audience was great and i’ve been re booked to play in July. (Details available soon as). I’ve got a number of gigs now booked throughout the summer and they are been added all the time. There is one gig i can’t announce just yet but i’ll publish it as soon as possible.

Creative Wave

As i said in an earlier post i’m undoubtedly going through a change in spirit, for the better i might add. I’ve got so much creativity flowing through me it’s great. I feel like i’m going to be able to finish a number of tracks that have lay in wait for ages and write some new stuff also.

Emotionally, i’ve been through a lot over the past few months and this is coming out in what i’m writing. A veil has lifted over me and i feel like i’ve come through the dark and entered the light! Sounds cheesy as, i know but that is how i’m feeling.

Politically, i’ve got a lot to say and there is a track in me that will soon explode. There is so much going on in the world negatively and has been for some time that you can lose track of who you are and what you stand for. The constant barrage of insult flagged through our television sets aimed to keep each and every one of us in a sombre state of mind. As someone once said “the coup d’etat of the human mind”

I cannot sit back and watch the downfall of a race fall silently. I think there comes a moment in everyone’s life where you stand up for the truth you believe in and slowly, i have reached that point. To sit back now in such troubled times seems a waste of everything we are. I appreciate everyone has different points of view on life and rightly so, for free will and freedom of choice are 2 of the greatest things we possess. But i’m sick and tired of feeling sick and tired with dummies telling me what to do and how to live. It’s my life and i don’t need anyone telling me what’s right for me. I’ll make that decision thank you very much!

We’ve drifted away from each other and it’s felt like each and every one of us is so alone, without hope, without truth and slowly we have sleepwalked into a world that appears wrong to each and every part of our beings, but most of the time i stop and think and really, deep down things just aren’t that bad and are changing for the better.

There has to be something more to what we are told, there just has to. Why? because it feels that way. Intuition tells me something isn’t right and there are a lot of chancers claiming to be in charge running the place but without the best interests of the rest of us.

Fuck the system for it is flawed and designed to keep us down. So tired of it and it has done nothing for the masses, only for the few. Things seem like they have gotten so bad that positive change can only be the next step. Viva la Revolution!